Pool

These thoughts pool and suddenly I’m submerged

Beneath the surface, I will find courage

To do things unheard of. Past things remain,

From the dreadful I’ll abstain.

I’ll find the key to unlock the chain — reaction in me.

Find my drive, and keep me from a self crushing defeat.

Not for glory and not for kingdom but for something much deeper. Something that lies above the surface of the current: still waters.

The calming waters will soothe my soul until I am but a merry sailor aboard the great sea of life.

Now I can full sail, knowing that I’m in full control. First I learned to swim then I learned to fare the waters blue.

Where there’s room for one there’s always two.

Room

I want to know what makes you tick.

What fascinates you, scares you, worries you.

I want to know your deepest fears and your deepest desires.

Be honest with me. I won’t judge you.

After all, what am I here for?

I want you to know that you can confide in me and I’ll never let you down as long as I live.

You are my heart and I am yours.

Let’s just curl up in bed all day and be lazy. We don’t have to leave this room. The world can wait.

It will wait for us. And I will wait for you, as long as I have to.

Stranger Than Fiction

Today is an odd day. I can’t seem to make heads or tails of it.

I knew what I had to do and I did it. The predicted “fallout” was a lot more benign than I imagined.

Now the ball is in my possession, I just have to make a move.

I’m more grateful than ever and it’s truly a blessing just to be able to type this post.

I need to take control of my destiny and create the life I want not the life I don’t want.

I guess we will see what the morrow brings. For now I’m hoping it’s something good.

How Anime Has Shaped Me

I’ve been watching anime ever since I was just starting out in elementary school. I still distinctly remember the first series of Naruto being aired on Cartoon Network.

Before that, it was series like Pokemon and Digimon that first introduced me to anime. And also an oft-forgotten series: Medabots. There was also the programming block late night on Cartoon Network: Toonami that aired re-runs of anime like Inuyasha, Ruroni Kenshin and Cowboy Bebop.

Anime was an integral part of me growing up and even inspired my own works of fiction. Not only was it a staple of my childhood but each anime along the way has shaped my ideals and morals to a point worth noting.

It was in Naruto, the hated underdog that was desperate for love and connection that I found part of myself in.

When I was younger I wasn’t always the most popular kid in school but I related to Naruto’s mission and journey. He was out to prove something but along the way he became someone he could be proud of. A true friend and hero to the people he cared about. He no longer needed approval from people because he found acceptance in his friends and colleagues. Naruto got his happy ending but it wasn’t without struggle and perseverance. And I think that’s something you just can’t knock.

Naruto had to literally conquer his demons to be able to gain victory in life. The metaphors in this show alone go over some people’s head but there are life lessons here.

Later in life, I decided to check out an often recommended anime: Welcome to the NHK. It was in the character Satou, that I found representation.

I had never seen a character with social anxiety represented before. I related to this character on so many different levels. His ending was not so much a happy ending but a realistic one. He didn’t achieve everything he set out to but he found something that worked for him and he got better.

It was in Ryuko, a high schooler at a brawling academy that I became to believe in girl power fully.

Needless to say, I took a lot of lessons away from anime and without it maybe I wouldn’t be who I am today. It’s entertaining but also relates to real life and there is an anime for any point and time in your life. I think more people should give it a chance.

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Ame雨

Rain, rain, please don’t go away…

Stay with me today and be my friend.

Everything feels like it’s at a standstill.

Sometimes I like feeling like the only person on the planet.

I don’t know why.

There’s something comforting about the silence. The pattern of the rain and the grey, dreary sky.

So, so quiet.

All I can hear is my thoughts and the pitter patter of the rain.

Engulfed in deafening silence.

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