life – Page 2 – Artistic Apathy

XTC

When you said you were down to ride, I didn’t account for an actual roller coaster

With you it’s up and down. First you’re hot then you’re cold.

What’s it going to take to spark this light?

I know exactly what buttons to push, what knobs to turn, to send you reeling…

You beg for mercy but it’s too late now. Allow me to repay you for everything in this moment.

I will not stop until you’ve arrived. Unlike a road trip, the point is not the destination.

In this case it’s the journey. On this ride, there are highs and then there are lows.

Let me get you to the point of climax only to have you fall into a maddening deep descent.

Afterwards I leave you begging for more but I’m reluctant to spoil you.

I’ll leave you to your imagination so the real thing is that much more powerful

You’ve given up control but left it in very capable hands.

Only someone who adores you deserves to have this kind of power over you.

This isn’t a dynamic, but every thing means something if I’m that much closer to you.

Our bodies become one and our souls unite on this joy ride of passion, pain and pleasure…

I sketched a story on your bare back. The story of us. Beginning, resolution and climax.

Au Revoir

The flowing of time… It never ceases. Hours bleed into days and days, months.

It’s something that can’t be taken back. How you choose to spend your time is an investment. What are you investing in?

I don’t know what it is I’m waiting for. The right moment maybe? When will things ever be perfect? And what is perfect exactly? I don’t know.

Satisfied with nothing. Hoping that change will somehow happen sitting here on this couch.

I see through it all and yet I rather stay here in this comfort zone at the risk of losing. But who stands to lose what and who stands to gain?

I just wish my life was something more than it is. Some people have hit the lottery in life and appear to have it all. I often wonder what I would do if I “had it all.” Never having to work another day job ever again. What I would do with a wealth of opportunities.

But are there not opportunities in front of our faces all the time? That we brush off, no consideration?

I just want my life to get better. Right now it’s not going how I’d like it. But then again I’m not exactly sure how I want it. I just know I don’t want it to remain the same. Well then, how do you play the game?

Yo Soy

I sometimes forget to screw the cap back on the toothpaste

I always watch Netflix with subtitles on whether or not it’s in my native language

My phone is the first thing I check when I wake up

I like going on long walks by myself

I like my water cold, not room temperature

I like listening to strangers’ problems

I like my coffee almost black

Money is a nice commodity but it’s not what I’m after

I like being the most well dressed person in the room

One of my pet peeves is when people don’t clean up after themselves

Another one of my pet peeves is when people think they’re smarter than me

I place everything in my room in a coordinated way, nothing out of place

Yo Soy.

Imagine That

I had a conversation with a friend about being in confinement and how we were coping. He told me that imagination was the only thing getting him through. I replied with “imagination can only get you so far.”

I don’t know why I said that because it’s obviously not true.

When we are down and defeated, we imagine a better future so it keeps us going. Fortune 500 companies had to start out as a thought first. A concept, or imagination. Everything is conceived in the mind and then later brought into fruition through willpower. We imagine a better life for ourselves so it causes us to go out and seek that. Sometimes we even get the life we imagine by chance.

So really, I think imagination is powerful. Insert the quote by Albert Einstein somewhere in here:

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited, whereas imagination embraces the entire world, stimulating progress, giving birth to evolution.”
– Albert Einstein, physicist

Without imagination, those little sweet moments… the completely uncalled for, the spontaneous… the things that make everything worthwhile, would cease to be.

Music would cease to be. So many things, disappear.

So I’m going to appreciate my imagination more. For that is where my creativity comes from, and forms the basis of my identity.

Permanent Vacation

Have you found your new home yet?

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I see. There’s no need to rush things. In the meantime, why don’t you try making yourself at home?

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I see. That’s unfortunate. Just wait and it’ll happen.

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And by wait I don’t mean waste time. There is a lot of living to be done before you find the right place.

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Maybe it would make it easier if you believed that that place was already being prepared for you.

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See, you don’t see it now but your bed has already been made. And it will remain. So there is no need to stress.

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Must we go on about this any longer? I’m starting to grow tired.

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Good night.