journal – Page 5 – Artistic Apathy

Imagine That

I had a conversation with a friend about being in confinement and how we were coping. He told me that imagination was the only thing getting him through. I replied with “imagination can only get you so far.”

I don’t know why I said that because it’s obviously not true.

When we are down and defeated, we imagine a better future so it keeps us going. Fortune 500 companies had to start out as a thought first. A concept, or imagination. Everything is conceived in the mind and then later brought into fruition through willpower. We imagine a better life for ourselves so it causes us to go out and seek that. Sometimes we even get the life we imagine by chance.

So really, I think imagination is powerful. Insert the quote by Albert Einstein somewhere in here:

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited, whereas imagination embraces the entire world, stimulating progress, giving birth to evolution.”
– Albert Einstein, physicist

Without imagination, those little sweet moments… the completely uncalled for, the spontaneous… the things that make everything worthwhile, would cease to be.

Music would cease to be. So many things, disappear.

So I’m going to appreciate my imagination more. For that is where my creativity comes from, and forms the basis of my identity.

Pool

These thoughts pool and suddenly I’m submerged

Beneath the surface, I will find courage

To do things unheard of. Past things remain,

From the dreadful I’ll abstain.

I’ll find the key to unlock the chain — reaction in me.

Find my drive, and keep me from a self crushing defeat.

Not for glory and not for kingdom but for something much deeper. Something that lies above the surface of the current: still waters.

The calming waters will soothe my soul until I am but a merry sailor aboard the great sea of life.

Now I can full sail, knowing that I’m in full control. First I learned to swim then I learned to fare the waters blue.

Where there’s room for one there’s always two.

Room

I want to know what makes you tick.

What fascinates you, scares you, worries you.

I want to know your deepest fears and your deepest desires.

Be honest with me. I won’t judge you.

After all, what am I here for?

I want you to know that you can confide in me and I’ll never let you down as long as I live.

You are my heart and I am yours.

Let’s just curl up in bed all day and be lazy. We don’t have to leave this room. The world can wait.

It will wait for us. And I will wait for you, as long as I have to.

Stranger Than Fiction

Today is an odd day. I can’t seem to make heads or tails of it.

I knew what I had to do and I did it. The predicted “fallout” was a lot more benign than I imagined.

Now the ball is in my possession, I just have to make a move.

I’m more grateful than ever and it’s truly a blessing just to be able to type this post.

I need to take control of my destiny and create the life I want not the life I don’t want.

I guess we will see what the morrow brings. For now I’m hoping it’s something good.

Ame雨

Rain, rain, please don’t go away…

Stay with me today and be my friend.

Everything feels like it’s at a standstill.

Sometimes I like feeling like the only person on the planet.

I don’t know why.

There’s something comforting about the silence. The pattern of the rain and the grey, dreary sky.

So, so quiet.

All I can hear is my thoughts and the pitter patter of the rain.

Engulfed in deafening silence.