I don’t own you…
And I think that is so beautiful
I watch you dance and prance on the stage of life
You are so fascinating
You are your own person
How could I ever keep you caged like a bird?
The caged bird sings but you sing even louder when you are free to roam
I won’t be the one to bind you.
Run
Run free
Make me proud to be in this maze with you
It’s a quiet afternoon in my homestead.
Rain patters on the window glass.
The window is so awash with rain I cannot see what is beyond it, out there…
I see lights. It’s something almost resembling Van Gogh’s starry night.
I hear the sound of running water and the clang of dishes together in the sink.
Everything is still.
Dinner will be ready soon so there is no need to fuss.
A movie plays on screen, where it is also raining.
Then suddenly, a flash of lightning strikes and I await the thunder but all that follows is the increasing noise of rain outside.
It seems the mood is perfectly set.
I’m not thinking about anything. Not thinking about what I will do tomorrow or what I have done today. It’s just now.
I’m here for the now.
Host: Gooood moooorning everybody. It’s another day here in the studio. I got my man with me, spinning nothing but heat. But first we’re going to take some requests. Going to the phones in 3…2…1…
Host: Hey you’re on the line caller number 1! Let’s hear it! What do you wanna listen to today?
Caller: Man you always have such good heartbreak jams. I just got my heart broken by the love of my life.
Host: Ouch! Sorry to hear that caller number 1. Can we get your name so everybody knows who you are out there?
Caller: Yeah, my name’s Malik.
Host: Malik just got his heart broken everybody. Welcome to The Lonely Hearts Club. This is my favorite segment on the show. Nothing but tear jerkers. Malik! I got you my man! Anything else you want to say to the people out there?
Caller: Just this: Angelica, I know you’re listening. Just wanted to say… **** you!
Host: Ooooh… did you bleep that? Malik I think that’s all the time we have for today. Thanks for calling into the show… I really hope everything works out.
Malik: (sniffling)
Host: Malik? Alright thanks for calling in. First we’re going to go to a commercial break everybody then we’ll be right back. You’re listening to WRTR Real Talk Radio and I’m your host! It don’t get realer than this. Keep it locked.
Lift me up!
Carry me!
I float on a cloud of insecurities and disconcertment
This vehicle no longer serves me
I need a new means of transportation
I hear of a fancier cloud where less thought is given to your immediate circumstances
One where music’s soul bonds with one’s own and the immediate scenario is one of dreams
I don’t know if I can afford such a cloud.
For now, would you help balance me so that I can gain my composure?
Maybe one day I will reach higher, much higher, in the clouds…
Nothing.
I used to want my opinion to matter but now I’m not so sure.
My opinion is always changing. I’ve gone from religious to atheistic to religious again and then spiritual.
So if my viewpoint is always changing why should anyone take it serious or even literal?
They shouldn’t.
I’m starting to feel that no one should take anything I have to say seriously.
It’s true what they say about your opinion being the only one that matters.
And it’s true because your beliefs and views shape the world around you. If you let outside input determine the way you look at you and the world, you will end up with a distorted perception. Which is what most people have anyway.
A hundred years from now, I’m sure no one will remember the things I had to say. Unless I’m somehow immortalized. Even still I can’t see it mattering much in the long run.
I’m sure this post will probably even fade from your memory in time.
So why say anything at all?
Well, there’s no real reason to say anything. Still, we have a lot of opinions.
Sometimes we can say something that will uplift someone or make them laugh or smile. So the things we say do have a impact but does everything have to be taken so literal? I think not.
A lot of times people don’t know what they think for sure (including me) and their recall of events is somewhat shot as well.
It seems what most people say out loud is not dependable.
Everything should be taken with a grain of salt. Even words from people who are known gurus or known to be smart or intellectual.
Don’t let anyone be the single determiner of your thoughts and feelings. That all lies on you. It falls on your shoulders to find the truth for yourself or simply what works for you.
So yeah, don’t even take this post serious. That is, unless you want to.
It is the process of freedom.
Artistic Apathy 