Queue the mic drop.
No really, I’m here to talk about my life. More specifically how much it’s changed.
Last year toward the end I’d been more hopeful than I ever was. The bulk of 2018 was sort of wacky but I aimed to end it on a positive note.
Till something terrible happened.
This event changed the way I looked at life in such a way that the effects were irreversible.
Thinking I needed a chance to recover from the chaos, I whisked away to the Dominican Republic where I stayed for three months.
This trip turned out to be the catalyst for a bunch of turning points.
I connected with my father who I hadn’t seen in a very long time and also got to see both sides of the family which is massive on both ends.
I really felt the love while I was there and ironically I had a lot of time to myself and to gather my thoughts. I made a list of all the things I wanted to accomplish when I got home and when I did I wasted no time.
By this time it’s mid May. I was a whole ‘nother person. Family back home couldn’t even recognize me. Although I had changed a lot on the outside they still couldn’t see the demons I was battling on the inside.
Until I started watching videos from an old mentor and he talked about “allowing.”
I started to “allow” and things shaped up quickly. Lots of things fell apart and I felt relieved. I started getting into meditation and allowing more.
I found stability and comfort in a new job and I felt like a functioning person again after months of peeking out my blinds.
Sometimes I think just how far I’ve come but it’s easy to take it for granted. I used to think I had no future and I was hopeless. Now I believe anything is possible. Went from thinking I needed a therapist to undoing years of ingrained beliefs just by sitting alone in a room. Stuff’s powerful.
2019 is only about half over and I still don’t know what the rest holds but I do know I have big plans.
Some things went unplanned however like the loss of certain friends and the sudden realization you can’t depend on anyone for your happiness or well-being.
That in itself however is a grown-up lesson and I will take it on the nose.
I’m not exactly out of the woods yet but it’s safe to say I’m much better than I’ve been and if you read my last post all that’s left is for me to hop on the train and ride.
Till next time.