Recently I’ve been noticing just how fast time seems to be going. It’s already almost the sixth month of the year. Halfway through the year. Weeks seem to blend into themselves and time is starting to seem more and more like something that’s just happening and that I have no control over.
Or do I?
I’ve been noticing more and more with meditation, as I sit with my eyes closed for thirty minutes that time seems to dissolve.
That “sense” of time that we all have… You know when you estimate how much time has gone by since you put those biscuits in the oven? Or how much time it’s been since you texted that person back?
Yeah, that. Well as I sit with my eyes closed all of that goes away. There’s no “it’s been 10 minutes” and counting the time until the session is over. It’s just me. Me being with me and being present in this moment.
See a lot of people live in terms of what will happen in the future. And sure, the future is sure to happen but it’s not a sure thing. No one can predict the future. You can only have an idea of what the future will be like based on the past.
As for as the past, the past only exists in our minds. Matter of fact, this whole post is in the past as I’m typing it. We can’t go back and our version of what happened is often skewed anyway.
Well what does that leave us with? The present. The here and now. You only really have now. That excitement you have for that future vacation or the anticipation that you’ll get a call back for that job is just speculation. We really don’t know where we’ll be five, ten months from now.
As I meditate more and more, I’m moving into this awareness. The awareness that I am just this moment.
The other day I had thoughts about my own mortality and felt as if I had to do something because time was going by too fast. I just got home from vacation and a month has gone at the snap of a finger. Soon I’ll be in the grave! Okay, hold on, hold on. Let’s relax.
If I fully embody the belief that I am just this moment then all the worries about the future and the flow of time will cease. There won’t be a flow of time, it’ll just be now.
It’s a hard concept to grasp but it’s more than a concept. It’s the truth.
Thank you for reading.